ON ZAZEN AND THE SHINSANSHIKI CEREMONY
(published June 1962, Wind Bell #7)
While you do zazen you will come to understand yourself completely and realize that there is no such thing as an “I” which exists. Still, in this moment, there is something participating in cosmic activity. In this moment, something exists as a part of cosmic activity, or as a part of temporal existence and in this way “I” has an absolute value in itself.
If you think, “I practice zazen,” that is a misunderstanding. Buddha practices zazen, not you. If you think, “I practice zazen,” there will be many troubles. If you think, “Buddha practices zazen,” there will be no trouble. Whether or not your zazen is painful or full of erroneous ideas, it is still Buddha’s activity. There is no way to escape from Buddha’s activity.
Thus you must accept yourself and devote yourself to yourself, or to Buddha, or to zazen. When you become yourself, zazen will become zazen.